Sacrifices...
Two weeks left...
Until my first ever hurdle in my college life...
Yeah, it's just the prelim's, I hear you say... But for me, it's not "just" the prelim's... It's THE prelim's...
I mean, how else does one build his foundation in his prospects of becoming a board-topnotcher five years afterwards?? It begins right then and there, in an hour long of pen-scratching-paper routine....
"Yeah right... Topnotcher, you say??? Fat chance.."
Yeah, to be the man, you gotta beat every other man ( and woman) there is... I know there are a lot of other people much much better than me, wiser and more studious... But I won't know if I could do it unless I try, right??
So this would probably be my last post in a couple of weeks, until the prelim's draw to a close.... Because I have to review for it... Especially for theology.. Man, that will be a pain in the rear.... Being required to read "Parts of Daniel" from the Apocrypha for more or less three essay questions?? man, that would probably take a while...
So I end this post now...
I would probably be posting again on the third week of August, with a poem perhaps and a new layout...
God bless us all.... Good luck......
Getting Forgetful...
**** Can't believe I was so careless.... I FORGOT TO UPDATE LAST MONDAY....... Sorry for this very very very late update guys..
It was a beautiful Sunday evening..... Too beautiful, in fact..... And it was the perfect time for another family get-together..
We left home at about 6:30pm, just a few moments after the sun sank below the western horizon, the sky showing only faint splashes of orange amidst the otherwise purple sky...
We were set for Roxas Boulevard, because the venue for the reunion was set there... Behind CCP, in a restaurant named JUMBO KINGDOM, just near the banks of the mainland (of course, because it was a floating resto).... At about 7:15 pm, we arrived...
Maybe I'm just too shallow, but gosh, was it beautiful!! Lights lined the corners of the floating structure, along its roof which gave an entirely Chinese feel because of the Pagoda-like arches at each tip.... Set at just more or less three feet above the water, the wooden floor swayed every now and again as the chains that hold the bridge in place rattled as if in laughter with the cool evening breeze... The sight was very breathtaking...
Maybe because it was a beautiful evening that I found the place wonderful.. But then again, it was quite impossible for me to resist such beauty.. It is what I would call "romantic"... a ship in the middle of the sea, swaying with the waves, in a cool Sunday evening... Superb!!
When we got inside, our hosts, Uncle Vic and Auntie Su, were already waiting so I didn't have time to explore it.... (Initially, that is.. ) I barely ate because I was too preoccupied with just looking at sea (actually, I think it's more of a bay.. ) and wondered what (the hell) I'll do if the foundation of the structure gave way and we would sink to the bottom of the waters.... (Happy thought isn't it?? HAHAHAH.. Just kidding..) But truthfully, I never got to enjoy the food... It was great, I suppose, but I would have wanted to explore the interior first before pigging out... Sadly, our hosts had other plans and were in a hurry because they were to get back to Vigan the following morning..
We, or more appropriately, they, finished eating at 8:30... Supposedly we were to immediately go home after eating.. But due to my insistence, (pestering more like HAHAHAH) I prodded them to go up and see the things found therein... Uncle Vic and Aunt Su, however, just gave a pass because they still have "some things to take care of"...
The second floor didn't really have much to see.. But the third floor held a rather antique looking Chinese emperor family bench (or whatever its called) and it was beautiful.... My parents, I presumed, shared the same sentiments as did my uncle and aunt (Rub's).. HERE COMES THE CAMERAS!!!!!!!!!!! Click, click, click.... hehehe.... We are so weird...... Sitting down that bench one by one, then all together, and just shooting away.... hehehe..
We ascended to the top floor, which doubled a bar of sorts.... Of course, we didn't go in there, because the outside was much more of a view than those dancing lights inside the bar... It was wonderful..... We were at the open air with the sea to look at, and the sky with the half moon, and the lights that dotted the streets..... Romantic talaga grabe.. Hahahah... Mababaw ako noh??? Pero it was really cute....
On the eastern side, however, it was pitch black.. As in nothing.... You can't see anything at all... There were no lights whatsoever on that side.. I presume it was the sea, because it couldn't have been land.. If it was, then, we would have seen cars or lights from the building.. But there was none.... Just an entire blanket of blackness... And it makes me think, how did the past sailors manage to cross the sea without the sophistication of radars and those types of things??? Siguro may lighthouse na nuon.. Sabi ko nga... Hehehe..
Sadly it began to rain at 9:15 pm and we were required to go home, because bad weather is a fierce enemy.. We arrived home at about 9:45....
Still even if my "sentimental mode" was cut off short by the rain, I still loved the whole experience.. And maybe, just maybe, if I could become rich enough someday, I'll build my home above the sea, floating there, a bit away from civilization, but not too far from it either... NANGARAP BA NG GISING!!!!! Hahahah.. Oh well, it's just a dream isn't it??
Oh well, gotta go now. Tata.. :)
Feeling good...
I just want to say thank you to those people (Jackie, Winnie, Sze, and Liz) for their concern.. :)) Really have great friends.. :)I managed to finish all my assignments last night and even managed to review for my english exams this coming Tuesday... How???? Dunno really.... But I know I would have never managed it without God, so I'm thankful to Him all the same... :)
I'm also in this inexplicable mindframe, and I feel as if nothing could stop me.. as if I could do everything... Yeah, I think it's a bit conceited too.... It's probably because I managed to climb that humongous pile of homework last night... Hope this feeling will pass soon, cos I don't want to be an obnoxious, arrogant brat...
I also found out that we're gonna have a family reunion again later tonight... In a boat!! Probably a ship... Don't know what's what.. My grandma just called us up this morning and told us we're gonna "dine in a boat".... So probably it's gonna be a "floating restaurant", which, I am not hesitant to deny, is super romantic... :)) Imagine we're in the middle of nowhere under the beautiful night sky with (hopefully) a full moon and some stars that dot the otherwise blue sky??? WOW!!!! as in, WOOOOWWWW.. I looooooooooooove it.... :)
Oh well, gotta go now... Still have 3 tests to review for.....
Again, thank God, my family and my friends for always being with me... :)
Tata now.... :)
One Hell of A Ride...
Next week promises to be one of the most hellacious rides in my college life ever.... One quiz after another.. One assignment after another.. Everything is piling up to be one big mess.. Here's what my schedule looks like:
TUESDAY: submission of math assignment regarding simpilfication, multiplication, and division of algebraic expressions; Quiz # 1 in English regarding the library (wha????) and study skills (dami memorization nito.. )
WEDNESDAY: handing over of pre lab assignment regarding density; Quiz # 1 on Chemistry regarding naming of compunds (with the charges of some never-heard compounds like Ferricyanide and Thiosulfate), bunsen burner and safety in the laboratory; Quiz # 1 on PHist regarding the PHILIPPINE MAP (OH MY GOD!!!!!) and the first unit which comprises of 29 pages; 1st practical test on volleyball (I'm sure I'm gonna fail this)
THURSDAY: Recorded practice quiz on Math regarding the four basic operations and simplification thorugh factoring of algebraic expressions; Handing over of English assignment regarding the use of the library (i.e. call numbers, periodicals and such); Submission of Chemistry assignment regarding molar mass, and percentage composition
FRIDAY: Quiz #2 on math regarding the aforementioned topics
SATURDAY: Submission of Drawing Activity regarding dimensioning techniques and application of line types; Possibly Quiz #1 on Theology..
Good gracious... Can I get through unscathed from this????
On a lighter note however, Auntie Rub's arrived from US last week.... YAHOOO!!!! We dined at Kamayan last Sunday evening and my goodness, did it feel so nice to have Auntie Rub's back here... :) She's reaaly got a good sense of humor... :) That night was very memorable to me, because it held many firsts: our first family reunion since 2003, Aunt Rub's first balikbayan since 2002, my first chance to unwind and enjoy since college began, my first time to eat Kalderetang Kambing (yum) and my first glass of beer since last Christmas.. Hahahahah.... ^_^ Really enjoyed the affair..... :) Thanks Auntie.. Glad you're back here in the Philippines...
A man approached me this Wednesday morning, and man did he give me the creeps... He was wearing a formal suit and then he came up to me and asked: "Excuse me, pano ba makabalik sa Legaspi?" And I say wha!?!?!?! Then I said" Sorry hindi ko po alam e.. Pasensya na po.." And he kept following me, saying "Sige nanaman po, hindi naman ako masamang tao e..." And I just kept repeating "sorry talaga hindi ko alam.." he was very persistent... Good thing he finally decided to ask somebody else at last... What bugged me was that he was wearing a suit.. I mean, how could he have wound up here in Manila, all clean and in a suit, if he came from Legaspi?? And he wasn't even carrying a bag to bring his things.. If he were a tourist, do you think he wouldn't be carrying his belongings or something?? And freakier still, he couldn't have been a tourist, because after I doubled back a bit, I saw him enter a house in the alleyway... Really really freaky....
Oh well, gotta go now... Tons of homework to do.... I'll update soon. Tata!! :)
CONGRATULATIONS!!
UP FIGHTING MAROONS :
CONGRATULATIONS!!!
GREAT GAME.. :)
"Highschool-sick"...
I never would have imagined that I would ever feel like this in my entire life.... Honestly, being "highschool-sick" is the last feeling that would ever cross my heart.. Or at least that was what I thought...
It's not that college sucks... It's just that it isn't as enjoyable as high school... In high school, you could get away with not reading your books and pass just as long as you listen to your teacher... In college, you NEED TO READ YOUR BOOKS if you want to pass!!!!!! My Chem teacher in highschool, Ms Llantada (MISS YOU MA'AM! :) ) is great... I really learned something from her.. and I barely touched my book then.. Now????? Oh my goodness.... Our prof is good as she is... But I need to read my book to cope up with her way of teaching... She's one of the "matalino pero hindi magaling magturo" types... Barely anyone could understand her.. But I have to give it to her, SHE IS GOOD, it's just that SHE DOESNT TEACH AS GOOD.... Sigh...
Classmates have also become a headache... They got absolutely no respect for the Chinese language.. and that gets on my nerves.... Imagine, they even shout it out loud, "Chi chi mo ma li it!!" And I just raise my eyebrows and shake my head.... It's both immoral and disrespectful... And they use "Intsik" to refer to the Chinese... I don't know why, but I just don't like the term.. Kung tutuusin rin naman, may term rin naman na "Tsino" e... They could have just used that instead of the rather offensive sounding "Intsik"... Grr!! I really don't like them... Hindi naman lahat.. May mga mababaet din tulad ni Clarence, James, Anjo, Jofel, and others.. Pero majority????? Sighs again...
When I met up with Abi this Thursday afternoon, it was like being home again.. Yeah, I really didn't talk much (basically cos hindi na ako sanay magpakabaliw, dapat kasi refined ka sa college) but it was just like.. I really couldn't describe the feeling.. Sobra lang akong saya kase I could unwind and be me again for a while, and not the overly serious engineering hopeful that I am inside the classroom... Tapos dumating pa si Mark Steven!! Really really enjoyed that afternoon... We just sat at the grandstand and talked for an hour.. I found out that Abi also has classmates who are overly disrespectful to Chinese... I really hate discriminative and arrogant people... Still, the three of us really didn't let it bother us for that moment.. We didn't want to ruin one of the few instances that we could be together again like that.. Hay sobrang saya talaga... Hope we could do it more often, pero sana next time, sama sama na ang buong section or something.... Hindi naman masamang mangarap di po ba?? Hehehe.. :)
Still Friday came and it was back to the tight college life that I find really really "nakakasakal"... the same ton of assignments (kumbaga gabundok) and the same rude classmates...And it was that same feeling of "highschool sickness" all over again....
Sigh...... There really is no place like home....
Be humble...
"The greatest wisdom on earth is to know that... you do not know everything.."
(---A very very nice quote I found while searching over the net a few moments ago.. :))
There are a lot of people out there who claim, "hey man, I'm the smartest man alive!" And I just simply look at their oversized heads and think that it must be bulging not because of super extraterrestrial wisdom but because of a huge presence of helium in their skulls...
Maangas ba?? Kasi naman, some people are just too arrogant.. Kala nila alam nila ang lahat ng bagay nang ganun ganun lang... There are even times that they come accompanied by a huge mob of classmates that actually revere him just because he memorized E=MC
squared... And I just look like.. duh!?!!?? Gumawa pa ng fan club!!!It's not that I'm jealous or insecure.. Honestly, dati ko pa ayaw magpatawag ng boy genius or similar names pero di ako pinakikinggan...
Kaya nananawagan po ako sa aking mga kaibigan, wag nyo na po akong tatawaging boy genius, genius, or whatever.... Please lang po.. We are all smart, di po ba?? :)I firmly believe na lahat tayo smart in our own ways... Some are proficient in speaking English, some are good in handling numbers, while some others are good in physical activities... But to go as far as saying you're a genius is something outrageous... And the fact that you let others believe you're a genius when you're merely smart is sheer hypocrisy.... Halos hayaan mo na ang mga klasmeyts mo na lumuhod at sambahin ka, at wala ka man lamang ginagawa tungkol dito! You are not a god to be worshipped!!!
Sana lang naman, be humble.. As if you really mean it... Wag magyabang.... Don't hold a megaphone over your throat and broadcast that you're the smartest.... Cos you're not! And kapag may sumasamba sayo't tinatawag kang henyo, sabihin mo na "Lahat tayo'y matalino sa sarili nating paraan... You might not know some of the things I do know, but I'm quite sure I also don't know some of the things you do." Wag mo siyang tapakan... Bagkus ay iahon mo siya at patayuin.... Encourage him more.
Iyon lamang po... Pagpasensyahan nyo na po ang aking kasungitan.... Sadya lang kasing nakakainis ang mga mayayabag dito sa mundo...
Tatat people.. Good luck to all of us... :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OUR GREAT FRIEND MS MONICA KRISTINE MADERA!! :) MORE BIRTHDAYS TO COME! GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS! :)
Pangako
***This is one of my rare tagalog posts... Please bear with me.. Para kasing namental block ako sa english e.. ***
******** July 3, 2005 ala una ng madaling araw:
Lumabas na ang aking iskor sa aking unang pagsusulit sa Kasaysayan ng Pilipinas... 28/30.... ARGHHHH! Dalawang puntos na lamang at perfect na sana ako... Dibdiban pa naman ang aking pag-aaral dahil nais kong makatamo ng honors..... Inulit ulit na basahin at isaulo ang mga datos nang mahigit tatlong beses.. hayyyy.. sayang talaga... disappointed ako sa sarili ko.. =(
Ibinigay na rin ang aming mga marka sa drawing.. Dito'y mas lalo akong pinanghinaan ng loob... 84/95.... Biruin mo naman, pinagpaguran ko iyon ng isang buong araw.. Nagxerox pa naman ako ng mga parapernaliya mula sa aking kamag-aral sa pag-asang makakuha ng mataas na antas... at labing isang puntos ang aking itinapon lamang??? Nakapanghihinayang talaga.. at ngayon pa sa aking ikalawang drawing activity ay sigurado na akong may 18 puntos akong mawawala... 77 na lamang ang pinakamataas kong makukuha.... e paano pa ako magkakahonor nyan????
Nagmadali akong pumunta sa aking alma mater kahapon ng hapon... Pagkatapos na pagkatapos ng aming theology, sumakay agad ako ng dyip.. Nakarating ako bandang 1:30, ngunit wala akong nakitang kakilala o di kaya'y gurong humubog sa akin sa apat na taon kong pamamalagi sa sekundaryang pag-aaral... (Really really sad.. Sighs... )
Umupo lamang ako roon sa may bandang tabi.. Nakatanaw sa malayo.. nag-iisip isip kung ano ang aking naging pagkukulang.... Sa totoo'y hindi ko alam.. Kung matulog nga ako'y alas onse na dahil sa pagbabasa ng mga napakakapal na libro namin... Manood man ako ng tv ay halos hindi lalampas ng isa't kalahating oras.. Bibihira na ring magonline.... Ewan ko ba.... Grabe talaga ang aking pagkabigo sa aking sarili..
Alas tres y media na rin nang makauwi sa bahay.. hindi makakain at pagod na pagod... Naroon lamang sa aking kama, nakatanaw muli sa langit na para bang naghahanap ng sagot sa napakarami kong katanungan... "Kaya ko ba talaga?" ang paulit ulit na pumasok sa aking isipan...
Kung iisipin ng iba, napaka OA ko naman... para lamang sa 2 puntos at 11 puntos ay kulang na lang iumpog ko sa pader ang aking ulo.. Ngunit..... hindi ba't sa mga ginagawa ko'y nararapat lamang na maperpek ko na ang mga ito? E paano na lamang kaya kung hindi pa dibdibang paggawa't pag-aaral ang aking ginawa??? E di bagsak pa ako...
Hayyy... ano pa kaya ang dapat kong gawin????
At sa madilim na gabing bumabalot sa akin, di ko maiwasang mapaluha ng bahagya sa aking pagkukulang ..
******** updated July 3, 2005 alas tres y medya ng hapon
Hindi.... Mali itong nararamdaman ko... Kung ako'y uupo lamang at pag-iisipan ang nakaraan, tiyak na mapag-iiwanan ako ng panahon..
Oo, ngayo'y bagsak nga ako... Ngunit bukas.... natitiyak kong babangon ako muli....
Natatawa ako sa mga nasabi ko't nagawa kaninang madaling araw.. Hindi naman maibabalik ng luha ang nakaraan di ba?? At isa pa, hindi naman maitatama ng mga salita ang mga mali.. Ang dapat lamang ay ipagpatuloy ang pagtakbo ng buhay, at mas lalo pang pagbutihin ang mga susunod na pagsubok, upang sa huli'y mabibigyan ko rin ng kasatuparan ang aking mga adhikain..
Salamat sa Diyos, ako'y naliwanagan rin....
At bagama't may mali ako sa aking pagsusulit sa nakaraan, babawi ako...
Ito ang aking ipinapangako....
